Oh the battle, food. Addiction? Some may call it that. Control: out of it. I must look the things that I am eating and wondering damn, did you really just eat that? I went out to eat yesterday and I felt guilty, and I haven’t felt like that ever, and it was just a realization that I need to stick what I was doing: not really eating out and concentrating on the bigger picture. A new me. I’ve always wanted to lose weight, but instead I headed down hill. It went from only losing 50 pounds, to now needing to lose 100. Instead of saying OH ONE OF MY RESOLUTIONS IS TO LOSE WEIGHT, I’m not even going to go there, I just want to be healthier. I want to wake up in the morning and within the first 30 minutes of being awake; go and eat breakfast. I don’t eat breakfast, ever. Sometime last month I had to force myself to go to a diner and eat a meal. And even then I ordered your typical big breakfast special and didn’t even eat much of it. Moderation. You’ll be able to still eat the foods you enjoy, but do it in moderation. I’ve been talking to various people, and reading blogs and all of these kinds of things for a while, and I want to try a few things out. As much as I want to just get into insanity and p90X (trust me I’d LOVE to do it if I could) physically I can’t. My back is messed up, and there is no way I’d want to get in that type of pain EVER again in my life. Having that inch nerve was the worse feeling I have ever experienced in my life. So how am I going to change? CHALLENGE.
Last week I jogged walked 13 miles, I’m pretty sure last year I didn’t even run that in one year. And this week my goal is to do 15-18. And the week after that 20. Why so much? I’m taking this challenge, I must do 100 miles in 6 weeks. I did my first 3 mile run last Tuesday, and it felt really really good. So yesterday I skipped the run because it was already dark when I got home, but today my goal is to do 5. I tried hitting it last week but my body just didn’t want to do it. So I thought, hey if I just jog walk 2-3 miles during lunch, and when I get home I can just do another 2-3, I may be able to do more than what I’m challenging myself to do. Well see, time is just not on my side these days. With that my goals for this week is to: everyday eat breakfast within 30-45 minutes of waking up, jog walk at least 2-3 miles per day (my weeks start on Tuesdays) and eat out less. I want to purchase daily vitamins again because I was more energized and felt better when I was taking them. So that’s that.
So let the games begin. I’ll try to write regularly. It won’t be on the daily but I’ll definitely try.